We'll be just fine

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdjCpCa-Ra8

This truly was the hardest year of my life. I've felt hurt before, I've felt longing before, I've felt loss before but I've never felt this. This is coming from the girl that worked 12 hour shifts at a warehouse, lived away from her mum for 13 years and grew up raising her parents. One emotionally unavailable, other with all the emotion 7000 miles away. Needless to say I don't believe I've had a bad life, it is a wonderful one full of love and surprises and God. And I've certainly got it pretty easy - so if you're reading this and thinking tf - you right. You most likely have a much harder life. Okay now that I've given my disclaimer-

I was gonna write a list of all the terrible things I've felt but as I stare at this little date and time section at the bottom right corner of my screen and realize I only have 13 minutes left of this year, I decided I don't want to focus on the negatives. No, I'm not ignoring it, I'm not sweeping it under a rug; I'm just so full of hope and wonder that I can't sit here battling my demons. Not when it counts. I'm so tired. But I'm so happy. I've got everything. I've got everything. Look around you, you've got everything.

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Here's to taking a leap of faith, one giant leap of faith. Here's to the strength your mother has given you, here's to the intelligence your second grade teacher spoke of, here's to all the places you'll go, here's to all the things that will make your family proud, here's to how you're going to make the world a better place, here's to you meeting the love of your life, here's to that brilliant mind. May you be happy, even when it seems like the hardest thing to do, may it never seem forced. May you only cry at your command, may you be the brightest star in the night sky. May you be the moon and the sun, all at once, at all times of the day.

May you take the love you have and spread it around.

Happy new year, my love.

From,

My love

P.S: Going on a walk.